I'm trying

I'm trying to stay strong
I'm trying to not let things take control over me
But lately I've just been breaking down
I mean, I guess it's kin of a good thing?
Maybe I'll learn more this way, but I'm sick of it.
Ya know, I look back on the reactions from my past, and really, I could've easily handled things so much better.
There's no reason I had to stop talking to those people, I chose to and it was a stupid desicion.
I'm trying to fix things, I'm just to nervous to talk to the person that caused me the most pain, I mean, we haven't talked in a year. Whatever, I'll post more later and get more into this whole thing.