Put the past away... yeah right.

Well, I'm trying to update this thing every day of my life. It helps get alot of my stress out. People might say to let the past go, well everyone knows I have, or at least you should. I mean, last winter, I was in a horrible situation. & I think we all know what that was so there's no need to explain. A couple months ago I couldn't have been happier with my life, but now I'm really starting to realize how much I miss the people that I have let walk out on me over the past year. Yeah, I admit I wasn't the best a friend could be at times, but at least I was honest. And really, I guess I just have to work up the courage to handle this and try fixing things with these people, I miss the way things used to be, and I accept that just the way it is, but I miss them so much, I have to fix my mistakes, and I'll do this all on my own, I don't need support. And I believe that I can do this on my own, I can live te rest of my life on my own without needing anyone to lean on. I might breakdown every once in a while and think that I've got it rough, but then I look at it from a different perspective and I know that I don't so bad as others do. But really, breaking down every once in a while is just making me a stronger person than I already am, I'm proud of the person I'm becoming because I'm changing my perspective and outlook on life into an even better view than before. I never thought I would change again, but it's coming and I hope this turns around, I've waited a long time and now I'm taking action, and I will try with everything I have to get some very important people back into my life. And I think you know who you couple people are.