Alright so this is the thing I don't want to hear ;
I don't wanna hear people giving me shit if me and Lauren start talking.
Really, if I do, clearly you're not a true friend because you would be supporting me or at least keeping your mouth shut.
So, this is how it's goin' down the next couple months...
I hear anything at all, such as your running your mouth, there will be a confrontation without a doubt.
I'm not gonna take it this winter, I won't take shit from anyone.
If you're one of my so called friends doing it, have fun with your life not having me in it.
Really though, I've changed, I know for a fact that it seems like I haven't because I'm not gonna take peoples shit.
I can control it, sometimes, but other times I just can't handle it and I freak out.
I really haven't been coping very well with stress and losing important people,
And I know I'm a strong person as I say every day of my life,
But like I said earlier, right now I'm breaking down and I don't know who to turn to if I need someone to lean on.
Last night, I got so much shit for just considering having her in my life again.
Everyone says I'm gonna get hurt again, but that's why I have feelings for her, right?
No, I don't, and I'm glad to say I'm over her and I don't think I will ever feel the same ever again.
I love how fucking stupid some of my friends can be, whatever, they're cool, NOT.
Gah, I'm getting sick of this shit, like really, I'm about done.
But as my good friend Tiffani told me today, "Zach, you've beaten this before"
And I believe I can do it again, if only I could just focus on the positive things, but in some situations, no matter how hard I try, I can't find the light in it.
Lately I have found myself in a shithole almost every night with no one to turn to but myself and really, I haven't been the strongest person recently.
I'm not proud of it, I always tell people to be strong, but how can I say that anymore if I can't even stay strong to my well being.
I'll solve this all tomorrow and fix what I did wrong last year.
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2 comments:
who's giving you crap about it? :(
they are jealous muahaha.
ya know you can always call my cell. or txt or whatever.
srsly.
see!?
i told you it would all work out :D
and what you showed me today?
that'll work itself out too.
i'm here if you need me,
we've all been there.
and tell your friends to shut the fuck up.
i'll beat em up :D
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